Substack essay titled “Holding the AUX” — a music-focused longform piece hosted on MusicX's Substack.

Hi, I’m Mike Bodge, founder of 4DHD and AUX. Thank you Maarten for having us.In 1993, I was 11 years old and made my first website. I had just seen this video on MTV where a new band was driving around in an ice cream truck talking about how “today was the greatest day”. The website allowed you to download .wav snippets of their music. It took hours to download over a dial up modem. I sat on AOL and chatted day and night in private chat rooms with other people obsessed with the band. We all had screen names like XxSpaceboYxX and somehow had endless things to talk about.The next year I got a guitar and formed a band with my neighbours Geoff (with a G) and Ryan. Ryan had an older brother that smoked cigarettes and let us know that bands on MTV were extremely not cool. Know what’s cool? Local punk and hardcore bands with music you could only buy at merch tables on 7” vinyl, at shows in old stinky veterans halls. You couldn’t find this music anywhere else until I stumbled on some IRC chat rooms that had servers to download any album you could think of as long as the mods let you in.Gatekeeping was everywhere and it was protection of the music and the scene.In 1995, the movie Hackers came out and melted my brain. I was a computer nerd and the aesthetics and soundtrack were nothing I had ever encountered before. I immediately searched for message boards where I could find this stuff. Hotline servers had all sorts of weird music made with machines. What the hell is a “rave”? Do I need to go to Europe? I traded the guitar in for turntables. I started to go to raves that I learned about via an email mailing list and awkwardly ran into my high school physics teacher at a loft party. He was rolling on pills and nearly had a heart attack when he saw me. We had to make a pact that I wouldn’t tell people about his “lifestyle”, and he didn’t even give me a good grade.Electronic music seemed to be an internet native art form. It was so weird and experimental, made on computers, and